From My Diary (1994) – "What I Wanted To Be In Life"

Reflections from my diary

Can you still remember what you wanted to be when you were young? I used to say that I have always wanted to be a writer, but when I saw what I wrote in my diary when I was still 19 years old, I had a better idea about my motivations.

Here is the journal entry I’m talking about:

Nov. 1994

Someday, I will study Psychology and be a Counselor. I may be a little shy, but deep inside I really like to touch other people’s lives.

I will also study Music or Theology and maybe write a book about God’s Miracles in my life.

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Having read this, I realized that it wasn’t just being a writer that I wanted. Being a writer was just part of it.

I wanted to write because I wanted to share how God has worked miraculously in my life! I wanted to comfort people and touch other people’s lives. And that was why I also somehow wanted to become a Counselor.

I wasn’t able to take up Psychology, but God has given me the chance to touch other people’s lives all these years.

I now have more than 14 books published consisting mostly of spiritual and inspirational books. And for many years, I was able to be a confidant through my personal blog. So many people have reached out to me and asked me to pray for them as well through my blog and its “Letters to Joyce” section. There, people can write to me and confide to me their troubles, and I could write back and even pray for their concerns.

It’s so comforting to be reminded of all these during this time when I feel as though I’m at the crossroads again, deciding what I must do next.

I knew I have taken the road less traveled, and if I just looked at my peers, I couldn’t say that I’m as successful as them today. So many have reached their career milestones and now occupy high ranking positions in the companies where they are.

As for me, I have no wealth or position to boast about. My accomplishments are minuscule in the eyes of the world.

But if I were to be given the chance to go back, I know that I’d do it all again and choose the same path.

Right now, I’m thinking about bringing back the “Letters to Joyce” portion of my blog even though I know I’d always feel unworthy of the call. I also plan to post more articles referring to the previous entries in my diaries.

Do pray for me and may the Good Lord guide us all!

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