I Want to Tell You About My Fears

Even though, I have faith in God and I strive to love Him more, there are still some fears I have to overcome in my spiritual life. I ask you to pray for me and I pray for you as well. Our spiritual journey is never over until we’re all in heaven and face to face with God. Here below, we must struggle with many temptations and we must continue to pray so that we may receive grace to overcome them.

An Honest Account of My Fears in My Spiritual Life

They say that perfect love casts away all fears. In relation to that, it is perfect love that gives us perfect trust also, a trust that drives away the many fears we have.

My fears then, are but signs that I still lack trust in God. Consequently, my lack of trust comes from my imperfect love.

These are some of my fears:

• I fear that if I let the world know about the things God has given me, the world may disbelieve in God or even mock the thought of Him because they do not see Him in me and in how I live my life.

• I fear that I may fall into a situation where I will be physically weak. This is because I know that when I’m physically weak, I also tend to be more spiritually vulnerable. I lose my temper or I easily give in to other temptations.

• I fear that I may not be able to bear the sufferings that will be required of me as I draw closer to God. What if I give up and end up worse than where I am now?

• I fear that I may not choose God’s will in the end. I mean, that’s a possibility given the freewill that we have. There are men that reject heaven despite all the graces they received. I don’t understand how someone could, but this is my greatest fear for my soul. To gradually or abruptly lose the way and not have the will to turn back to the right path anymore.

  Reading St. Faustina’s diary, however, helped me to see how my fears could be relieved by trusting God more. To trust Him is not only to have faith that He will be with me when I’m strong and perfect, but that He will help me even during those times when I feel weakest and most vulnerable. To trust Him is to believe that He knows my situation and that He understands perfectly where I’m coming from.

  Diary of St. Faustina:

  356.

  O Blessed Host, I trust in You when my tasks will be beyond my strength and adversity will become my daily lot.

  O Blessed Host I trust in You when the practice of virtue will appear difficult for me and my nature will grow rebellious.

  O Blessed Host, I trust in You when hostile blows will be aimed against me.

  O Blessed Host, I trust in You when my toils and efforts will be misjudged by others.

  O Blessed Host, I trust in You when Your judgments will resound over me; it is then that I will trust in the sea of Your mercy.

  …

  358

  He will not allow those who have placed all their trust in Him to be put to shame.

  “No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.” — 1 Corinthians 10:13, WEB

  A Prayer of Trust

  Lord, I do not know how to face this situation. I feel also that I neither have the strength nor the courage for it. By myself, I shall fall.

  So I entrust to you everything. In your wisdom and strength. In your mercy and love.

  Help me to face what I’m going through according to your will. Let me do the right thing. Keep me from hurting others or from harming my own soul.

  I offer to you everything — every pain, every fear, every weakness that I have. I cling to you each moment. May your grace sustain me through it all and may your love ever be before me, a light that shines even through my darkest night. Amen.

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